The surgery was fixed ten days later.
Neither of them discussed the emotional significance of that fact.
Sudharma simply started calling more frequently after that night.
Some conversations lasted forty minutes.
Some ended in three.
Sometimes Swara sounded normal enough for him to momentarily forget hospitals existed at all.
Sometimes she sounded so tired that even speaking seemed like effort.
“What did doctor say today?”
“Same thing re. Everyone using difficult words unnecessarily.”
“You ask properly or not?”
“I nod confidently. Inside nothing entering.”
“You haven’t changed.”
“You have become old.”
“Thank you.”
“Hmmm.”
Silence.
Comfortable again.
Sudharma came down two days before surgery.
The hospital was in Bengaluru.
A large private hospital trying very hard to look reassuring.
Glass everywhere.
Artificial plants.
People speaking softly as though volume itself could disturb illness.
Swara was sitting near the billing section when he first saw her.
For one second he didn’t recognize her properly.
The tiredness had settled into her physically.
Weight loss.
Loose kurta.
Hair tied carelessly.
Darkness beneath eyes.
But the moment she looked up and frowned at him, familiarity returned instantly.
“You came directly here ah?”
“Where else should I come? Mysore palace?”
Swara rolled her eyes faintly.
“Still irritating.”
“Still stubborn.”
That earned him the first real smile he had seen from her since calling.
The next few days moved strangely.
Hospitals altered time.
Morning and evening stopped feeling distinct inside air-conditioned corridors and waiting areas filled with anxious families pretending calm for each other.
Sudharma met her mother properly again after years.
Met her sister briefly near the pharmacy.
Everyone looked tired in different ways.
Practical tiredness.
Emotional tiredness.
Financial tiredness.
Decision tiredness.
Swara herself handled most conversations with doctors calmly enough.
That almost worried Sudharma more.
She listened.
Nodded.
Signed forms.
Like someone completing work she had no emotional energy left to resist.
One evening they sat outside near the hospital tea stall while her mother finished some insurance discussion upstairs.
Traffic noise drifted continuously from the main road nearby.
Swara held the paper cup between both palms without drinking.
“You know what’s most irritating?” she asked suddenly.
“What?”
“Everyone suddenly becoming very nice.”
Sudharma glanced at her.
“People are scared re.”
“I know.”
She smiled faintly.
“But sympathy is exhausting.”
He understood that immediately.
The problem with sympathy was that it rarely allowed normalcy to survive beside it.
Every conversation became careful.
Every silence became loaded.
People stopped speaking naturally.
“You want me also to behave sensitively ah?” Sudharma asked.
“No chance. You came only to shout.”
“That’s true.”
Swara laughed softly into the cup.
For a few seconds both watched traffic without speaking.
Then she asked:
“You got scared ah?”
Sudharma didn’t answer immediately.
Because the truthful answer embarrassed him slightly.
“Yes,” he said finally.
Swara nodded once.
“Hmmm.”
The surgery happened on a Monday morning.
They took her in around seven.
Her mother cried only after Swara disappeared behind the operation theatre doors.
Until then she had remained composed almost aggressively.
Practical tasks protected people from breaking.
Insurance papers.
Phone calls.
Doctor consultations.
Relative updates.
Once activity stopped, fear finally found space.
Sudharma spent most of the waiting hours outside the OT with her sister and mother.
Hospitals created strange temporary communities among waiting families.
People who would never meet again shared benches, tea, updates, silence.
At one point Swara’s mother asked:
“You ate?”
He realized he hadn’t.
Neither had they.
Three teas and one packet of biscuits became lunch.
No one tasted any of it.
The surgery took longer than expected.
Just long enough for imagination to begin misbehaving.
Every time theatre doors opened, people looked up together instinctively.
Finally sometime after afternoon, the surgeon came out removing his cap.
“Procedure went well.”
The sentence visibly changed the atmosphere around them.
Details followed after:
early stage,
contained,
good signs,
further reports pending.
Words everyone listened to carefully while understanding only half.
Swara was shifted to recovery later that evening.
When Sudharma saw her again, she was still heavily sedated.
Machines beeped softly around the room.
The sharp smell of antiseptic sat everywhere.
For the first time since hearing about the illness, reality settled fully inside him.
reports,
monitors,
oxygen tubes,
waiting.
Swara opened her eyes briefly sometime later.
Saw him standing there.
And whispered weakly:
“You still here ah?”
“Unfortunately.”
“Hmmm.”
Her eyes closed again.
But her hand remained loosely holding his wrist for several seconds before sleep pulled her back fully.
He stood there without moving until the nurse gently asked him to step outside.
Recovery was slower than surgery.
Painkillers made Swara irritable.
Relatives made her more irritable.
By third day she had started complaining properly again, which everyone took as positive sign.
One afternoon her mother had gone home briefly and Sudharma was sitting beside the bed while Swara struggled unsuccessfully with hospital food.
“This sambar tastes illegal.”
“You and hospital food both fighting for survival.”
“Don’t joke. I think they hate patients.”
“You rejected surgery itself. Hospital also emotional now.”
Swara glared weakly.
Then after a pause asked:
“College?”
“Hmmm?”
“You left everything and came.”
“I came for few days only re. Relax.”
Then quietly:
“Thanks.”
The word sat awkwardly between them because gratitude had never been the language of their friendship.
Sudharma looked at her for a few seconds.
Then said lightly:
“You can repay after becoming normal and irritating again.”
Swara smiled without energy.
But this time the smile stayed longer.
The biopsy reports came nearly a week later.
Good news.
Contained.
No chemotherapy immediately required.
Regular monitoring.
Medication.
Recovery.
Everyone around Swara visibly breathed easier after that.
Phone conversations became lighter.
Relatives sounded optimistic again.
Future slowly re-entered conversations.
But something quieter had also changed underneath all that.
The distance between Sudharma and Swara no longer felt natural anymore.
Medication reminders.
Doctor follow-ups.
Work updates.
A month later, when Sudharma mentioned he had started looking for jobs again after finishing his course requirements, Swara simply said:
“Send resume.”
“For what?”
“Opening in our company.”
“You became HR ah?”
“I know people.”
“Hmmm.”
“Send properly. Not your useless old format.”
“Yes madam.”
Two days later she called during lunch.
“Interview Friday.”
“So fast?”
“You think influence should move slowly ah?”
He laughed.
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